i cant take it any longer.. you just act like it's supposed to be that way, that everything that is happening is all fate. you dun even want to even TRY and you just want to give up. tt is such a pathetic attitude.. and now with giving up comes giving trouble? im already having enough troubles fretting over all these shit tt the whole section is giving, yet you.. why cant u just spare a thought for me? everytime u r depressed, im always trying my best, stayin by ur side, trying to at least confort you tt you arent alone in this world.. you just keep giving up and letting everything go.. i told you before, things can change, even if it is already set, history has proven itself.. but you just keep giving up, not even wanting to try to get what you want.. it frustrates me a lot you noe.. u just keep making me wonder, if this friendship is even possible with the rivalry between.. but anyway forget it. you hav ur friends now, frens tt arent related to your troubles.. maybe i shld just step out of your life now.. everytime you see me, its like you will be reminded of all ur pains.. no matter how much i try to cheer u up, you will just fall back down.. no matter how much i change, it doesnt matter.. maybe im just weak, maybe im just pathetic, maybe im just not someone you can co-exist with.. you wanted to make everything go smooth now tts its under us now, yet you could just ignore everything and do wadeva you wanted to do.. i already had problems with the others, you wanted to change it, but today you just were too much.. only with flared tempers then you could finally go back to organising things.. i dun even noe wad you are thinking about now.. this isnt wad you want, and you noe this will give you worse chance of getting wad you want, yet you can do this? maybe i shld just give up and everything will be back to being peaceful, everyone happy.. just being common.. who was i kidding when i wanted to step up.. its all just a joke..

or maybe its just me. im just so pathetically weak tt noone even takes notice of my existence.. and now you shld leave too.. i dun matter anymore. i didnt in the first place. not to any single human soul in existence. im just a hindrance. no matter wad i do for others, it just wont hav a single effect.. im just pathetic.. only when im emo den ppl notice me? den ppl will show concern? den wads the point of my existence.. its just lame. just a joke. maybe my existence is an accident in the first place..