its been such a long time already
yet i still cant get over it
is it because my feelings are that strong?
or that its because you still havent forgiven me
that it leaves behind a painful regret?
i cant differentiate my feelings anymore, i find.

i dont know why i still bother so much
like looking out for you whenever i go past
like it'd make a difference if i saw you or not.
maybe the memories are too strong
you were the best memories i've ever had, even up to now.

but you're creating more memories of your own le
it hurts badly to know that what we used to share uniquely ours
you share with another person now.

i read somewhere,
不要为失去的而哭泣
而为曾经有过的而微笑

但现在，我为曾经有过而痛苦.