Just randomly opened your letters after shutting them away for so long.
But it made me smile suddenly.
You made me recall why I loved you.
You really deserve so much more
And yet you had to see me in such a wretched state.
I really regret everything between us.
Either nothing at all, or something much more beautiful and deserving of you should have happened.
And maybe I understand more of what happened between us.
But tmr
I will try to smile at you again.

I've never dared to use the word "love" for anyone else.
Maybe this is it.