ahh i keep blogging at weird intervals lol.. really hope im not screwing up my biological clock too much... and my health also. lol.
woke up at 3.45pm today and was almost late for class movie ><
but was late with another guy. then we rannn like mad from dhoby to cathay LOL.
super fun.
ahh well.
idk why but today's outing felt very nostalgic.
it was the same feeling i had on my last date with my ex
the same feeling i had at the last bridge game with my senior
idk, is everything going to end again?
change seems to be the only constant at times..
i cant keep up with it.
i suck at new social environments and it takes me really long to open up to ppl
so why take it away from me so soon again..?
will we really drift from today?
i really dont want it to be so.
i think some of my classmates may have felt it also haha.
though i know some will definitely keep in contact, others like me im not so sure
what contact is there for me to sustain?
im so irrelephant (http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=234059763323808&set=a.141837285879390.29134.141644432565342&type=1&theater)
AHA picture so cute but also so :/ if you think deeper why the elephant is liddat.
ah well.
i've decided not to look back anymore.
it's time to work on the present, on these disgusting traits i have
like being perpetually late lol..
or taking advantage of ppl.
mm.
i cling alot to the past
to the comforts i know
because the future often holds fears and pains i dare not face.
still rmb my church fren's departure overseas to study
went there to send him off, and tons of friends were there too.
if i go overseas and study, who will be there to see me off?
it's such a fearful reality to see noone there lol..

can a relationship really be sustained without contact?
can the time gap between each acquainting be ignored?
we dont communicate for periods, and when we get back together we can get along as well as we did in the past: is this a true friendship?
i used to think so.
but to think that way seems to neglect our ignorance of what each other experienced in the time gap.
is that still a true friendship?
but then, what relationship can withstand the time and still gel well as before the separation?
the answers seem so delusional.
well one thing's for certain, im gonna be having a lonely christmas this year
while everyone is gonna go out together.
woe to me :)
im really too sensitive for my own good haha.
too bothered by what others think of me.
idk, but is being sensitive good?
some say it's a necessary trait of a good leader
my ex said that sensitive guys are the sweetest ppl
(idk why she said it in front of me haha. there you go, im thinking too much again)
but the burden of being sensitive is so great.
ahhhh.
i gotta change
coz change is the only constant.
woohoo zai quote!! learn to use in gp essay people~~~~~~~~