idk why i broke down and cried today during sharing.
the last thing i want is to show others my weakest side.
but i did anw.
feel like a joke.
he's probably gonna tell others about how emotional i am which i hate like fk.
its like emphasizing on how gay i am as if i needed that.
but then,
life has really passed and i have wasted two years of my life away.
its so pitiful. i can hear ppl laughing at me now on twitter behind my back.
2 years gone and i feel as though i've backtracked instead.
made empty relationships and made enemies
im so tired of trusting people and opening up
but walking alone through everything just tires me out so badly.
alone.
sure there are some friends that i've made, but they are never where i need them to be.
not that it's their fault. they cant be with me at home or in painful situations.
and i dont want pity.

i just want ppl to care about me.
geniunely.
lol, being gay and emotional now.
i just need direction, reaffirmation that what im doing is correct
so tired.
who would know what it really feels like to always be the supporting role
but never the lead actor
ever.
you fight and fight and you'll never be good enough.
jack of all trades, master of none.
and nothing to hold proud to your name.
"who is roy?"
oh, some guy who wasnt too bad at this, at that
but he never was good enough to be recognised.